Tuesday, March 8, 2016

fun stuff: infinite blue

"The so-called 'psychotically depressed' person who tries to kill herself doesn't do so out of quote 'hopelessness' or any abstract conviction that life's assets and debits do not square. 
And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing.
The person in whom its invisible agony reaches a certain 
unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise.

Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows.
Their terror of falling from a great height is 
still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; 
i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant.  

The variable here is the other terror, the fire's flames:  
when the flames get close enough,
falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors.
It's not desiring the fall; it's terror of the flames.

And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling
'Don't!' and 'Hang on!', can understand the jump.  Not really.
You have to have personally been trapped and
felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."

                                                                                     - david foster wallace
my scrap blanket is getting bluer and bigger...

and my reading this week
is david foster wallace's infinte jest.
i went looking for this behemoth of a book after watching the movie
'end of the tour' which was a biography of this writing genius 
who ended up killing himself at the age of 46.

it's suppose to be one of those books that will change your life ?!?
what are you knitting? reading?
care to share?



  1. Beautiful blanket Erica.
    I'm not sure I could read your book, at least not right now, just the thought of killing one's self makes me sad.

  2. not my kind of read....but definitely 'my' kind of knit---and yours is lovely!

  3. Two things: I love the blue! Secondly, what an undertaking to read Infinite Jest! It's in my to-read list, but it's such a large and deep novel.

  4. The quote is so clear and beautiful thank you for sharing.

  5. Hmm it's an interesting quote but I'm not sure I'd want it to be life changing - I really rather like my life :) Your gorgeous indigo knitting on the other hand is completely my cup of tea - so pretty!

  6. That book sounds both imtimdating and intriguing. Your knitting on the the other hand is beautiful.


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